December 7, 2014
I
have a lot to be thankful for to the Lord for sparing us from the storm, but
not only that. It was as if He used Ruby to help me experience the things I so
desired to experience like rest and reflection, things which I barely get from
my everyday struggles. I am indeed grateful but regretful for my darkness.
Being forced to an asylum with oneself can lay bare the ugly secrets of one’s
being. I was once again made to look into my own well to see all the nasty
stuff about me, my personality, my thoughts and my emotions and right now, as I
try to be spontaneous with my thoughts and my writing, it’s as if I’m called to
embrace all of these as part of my loving of myself. I’m made to accept the
truth that I am loved by God as the total me which includes all this ugliness
which I’d rather not know or look at. Well, it’s difficult but in time, with
more realizations, I’d learn to and I’ll be surprised with how the Lord will do
it, but for the meantime, I want to say “Thank You!”
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